Alcohol help is a big decision and it is something you will need to commit to if you want change. I realize that having a problem with alcohol or drugs is not fun. It seems you are on a never ending cycle of dread, regrets, self loathing and humiliation. I can go into all the bad feelings you have on a daily basis, although what good would it do. You already feel terrible or you would not be here.
There are many programs and recovery centers that can help. It just depends on what your personal needs are. Alcoholics Anonymous is a tested program that has been around for decades {1935} and is still successful.
I get the fact that someone reading this is also in part denial. If the thought has entered your mind that you may have a problem explore it. Getting sober is not easy. The hardest part might just be convincing yourself that your life will be better sober. Everybody I have come in contact with that has gotten alcohol help and gotten sober has a much improved life. After sobriety working on your spirituality becomes much easier.
I will say that gaining your self respect back will be worth it. It will be hard, frustrating, fearful, painful (emotionally) and you will probably wish you had not started to get sober, but I promise it will be worth it.
I would also like to say no matter whichever avenue you choose to get sober, remember that this is just a starting point. You will need new interests and probably new friends.
Below is the 12 step program. Please remember we are already perfect and we are as humans striving to realize this. No matter what we do in life as long as comes from a pure place of LOVE we will be okay.
THE TWELVE STEPS OF ALCOHOLICS ANONYMOUS
1. We admitted we were powerless over alcohol—that our lives had become unmanageable.
2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
3. Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
4. Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
5. Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
6. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
7. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
8. Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.
9. Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
10. Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.
11. Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.
12. Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
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(now known as Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc.)
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If you have questions about programs or anything that has to do with alcohol or drugs you can contact me and I will help.
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